DEFENDER'S RAP

• Do you ever wake up from a damn nightmare
• With sweat all over your hair
• Your heart beating wildly
• while fear is spreading widely
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• No, you probably haven't
• But I have, and it's so fucking scary
• These nightmares are so fuckin' deadly
• and in the end, I'm feeling so damn empty
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• Poisoning me
• Killing me so slowly
• I try so hard to fight it
• but then I quit
• cos I know I can't win it
• and I become so fucking lonely
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• Waking up to the faint sounds of gunshots
• and the sirens from the cops
• but what scares me the most
• is the screaming that I heard
• before all became silent
• then suddenly things became violent
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• Gunshots poppin'
• glass breaking
• children screaming
• and I just keep askin'
• why is this happenin'?
• why is this place full of hate?
• why do you have to discriminate?
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• and I realize, it's the world to blame
• guns already lifted and aimed
• trying to take these lives to be claimed
• it's such a damn shame
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• and you don't know the people left behind
• either dead or scarred in their mind
• trying to figure out how they survived
• but leaving them traumatized
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• Every night, I have to fight
• these fucking nightmares
• making my mind in a despair
• and thinking how life's unfair
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• All these memories
• are full of scenes
• with lots of screams
• I'm trynna be strong
• but I've been withdrawn
• deep in my mind
• making me blind
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• How do you want me to be fine
• when you don't know what's goin on my mind
• Being held hostage
• leaving so much fucking damage
• Can't you see
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• My memories, it's all I have of me
• but I can't be really free
• because the past still haunts me
• I'm alone in these dreams,
• cos I have nobody