DEFENDER'S RAP

• Hiding the hurt, hiding my pain
• Hiding tears, saying it's just rain
• Saying i'm fine, when really i'm not
• Having to pretend, a lot
• Here on my arms lies the lines i made
• On days that i had to use a razor blade
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• I'm one of those girls who doesn't know wrong from right
• I'm one of those girls who has to live life in fright
• I'm always gonna be insecure about my body
• I just can't be who others want me to be
• I never have and never will change who i am
• No matter how much the counselor's and therapists try
• This might just be me giving up
• This might just be my last goodbye
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• Look at my scars and you will see
• That all this time i've been acting happy
• You are gonna tell me that i'm the best
• When i already know i'm your biggest regret
• You're gonna say you love us both, me and my brother
• But in your head you wish you never had a daughter
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• Mom, dad, just admit it
• Admit you that you really just wanna quit
• Don't act like you care even a tiny bit
• Cause i know you don't give a shit
• I use to be such a hypocrite
• Saying " You weren't given a life just so you can quit"
• When i'm still holding my wrist so i can slit
• Dying is easy, i'm really desperate
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• I'm dying in the inside
• All you see is the happiness from the outside
• I say i'm wearing long sleeves because i feel cold
• When really underneath is where the truth beholds