CHALLENGER'S RAP

• Dear;
• to whoever this may concern.../
• This is my last statement that is ever heard/
• I hope you witness in my words/
• my declining emotional state/
• i sat day after day trying to contemplate/
• if there was a reason for living and if i should stay/
• but in the end i realized that there is no other way/
• now you may ask and wonder what turned me to a monster/
• I pondered the same thing and I was a troubled youngster/
• Instead of long happy summers and love from others/
• my madness smothers reality, Is there an option left for me?/
• or just this illness, to live life in agony/
• in a broken Twisted Mentality , I'm not thinking clearly/
• everyday, I wake up I question my existence/
• That's why I'm disappearing in the distance/
• hook}
• {I know it will get better
• but for now, I'll keep writing this letter..
• pain after pain I felt stabbing in my brain
• insane i became weighed down by these chains
• Despair now inflames the dark tide of his veins,
• changed and deranged trying to save what still remains}
• v2
• battling though this wicked depression/
• has me at the bar drinking heavy/
• 12 shots of patron is my method/
• Playin' a game of true confessions/
• struggling with life & its lessons/
• A quick thought comes to my attention/
• With it comes aggression/
• Peace I cannot find/
• I found myself, Looking in the guns direction./
• To exalt a lonely mind/
• in the end it's my own reflection/
• images of thoughts refined/
• all this pain will go away in time/
• hook}
• {I know it will get better
• but for now, I'll keep writing this letter/
• pain after pain I felt stabbing in my brain
• insane I became weighed down by these chains
• Despair now inflames the dark tide of his veins,
• changed and deranged trying to save what still remains}
• V3
• Pain is a poison I digest When it blows I'm out of here,
• you can have what's left. i'll pretend that this is real
• because It's what I like best,
• cant escape away from this mad ideal
• who feels the same way that I feel
• why do I hate myself for the weakness I conceal?
• tonight Might be the night I fall asleep at the wheel
• If all things are in time then Time can only reveal
• More horror than 'Amityville', no sorrow just Mentally ill
• The mystery which binds me still Blame me, if You will
• going through the same old routines
• Craving the life, I live in my dreams
• I got caught between the scenes
• God help me live life again
• Until then ill just smoke this bowl of magical green
• hook}
• {I know it will get better
• but for now, I'll keep writing this letter/
• pain after pain I felt stabbing in my brain