DEFENDER'S RAP

• I don't mean to hurt your feelings
• when I say this shit to you
• you keep asking me for reasons
• why I do the shit I do
• at this point normally id lie
• this time I'm telling you the truth
• I'm in love with you baby
• I don't want you to be confused
• Ever since I was a child
• I've had these voices in my head
• all because of one night
• that left the good inside me dead
• not because of my wrongdoings
• nor some shit that I regret
• because I was alone on my own
• Cold and soaking wet
• Realizing everyone I loved
• had either turned on me or left
• And the man I called crazy
• Called sayin he wished that I was dead
• Till this day that thought plays out
• Making sure I dont forget
• The night I lost it all
• The night i never have confessed
• The night that i went crazy baby
• why I leave you lonely and depressed
• see some shit had happened
• That left a war inside my head
• And I'm so fuckin sorry
• girl I know that I am blessed
• I couldn't do this thing without you
• Because without you id be dead
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• But thats how it goes sometimes
• Thats the way the cookie crumbles
• Thats how it goes sometimes
• When you love a man like me
• Yea thats how it goes sometimes
• When you live the life we're livin
• Thats how it goes sometimes
• When you love a man like me
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• I couldnt see what i had in front of me
• till it was gone
• Now im searching for redemption
• through a microphone
• Hoping you hear this
• Praying that you'll listen
• no im not asking for another chance
• nor any kind of forgiveness
• with the lord as my witness
• I know I fucked shit up
• theres no way that i can fix it
• You were blind to the facts
• yet it was never my intention
• To hurt you nor discourage you
• See i learned a lesson
• Always treat the ones you love
• as nothing else matters
• Because when they start step
• Life becomes disaster
• Me, I was born a bastard
• Raised in relationships that never lasted
• When other hearts grew hungry
• Mine decided fasting
• Until the day I met you
• That day that you walked past me
• a memory i can not forget
• One ill carry to the casket
• the hardest part to acknowledge
• Is your love, I fuckin had it
• But your heart was made of glass
• And i'm an asshole so I smashed it
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• But thats how it goes sometimes
• Thats the way the cookie crumbles
• Thats how it goes sometimes
• When you love a man like me
• Yea thats how it goes sometimes
• When you live the life we're livin
• Thats how it goes sometimes
• When you love a man like me