DEFENDER'S RAP

• I had a dream the other night, that you were still alive
• Brought up all these mixed feelings that I could never describe
• I believed the dream, woke up. Felt like it lied
• I felt betrayed by my really fucked up mind.
• I really didn’t think I saw another glance, a glance of you
• I stand there staring at you, confused without a clue
• Brought you to a comp to show you how I knew
• Then I woke up, but don’t know what to do, I miss you
• I'm just so pissed, it took your death to realize
• That I was so wrong and need to apologize
• I apologize for every time I pushed u away
• You never changed for anyone, everything was the same
• Sitting here looking at your pic, heartbroken
• Eyes swollen, remembering that it’s your life that was chosen
• It’s not your fault either, I know you had to go
• Just don’t understand why you were chosen, now I’m alone
• You’re in the skies and I can’t change that now
• I haven’t forgotten our moments when we were downtown
• Always in my heart, to leave I won’t allow
• Never thought i would lose you like this anyhow
• I'm sorry it took so long just for me to speak
• When I’m traumatized I always freak
• It’s no excuse I know. I should be right with you, my death I shall seek
• But still whenever I think of that night I cry and yes I usually tweak
• But I’m never going to be able
• To lose my life so soon
• Always will regret it
• I’m just a child I would regret it
• But now it’s too late, is this fate?
• I'm still here as you’re going through the gate
• November 19th I DREAD that date
• So many others with me, but they can’t relate
• Can't understand why I never said goodbye
• All I can do is try to accept it but I can’t, why?
• Bursting into tears and just start to cry.
• Your always a close friend in fact my ride or die