DEFENDER'S RAP

• Lord, i can't understand why you don't just answer my questions,
• I'm not interested in subliminal or even hints or suggestions,
• I need a straight answer from you but all I see is rejection,
• We're made in your image huh, yeah I can see the reflection.
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• Don't mean to interrupt your thoughts but allow me this interjection,
• I'd like to put some human words together and ask you a question,
• What has been haunting me at least the past 10, maybe all my life,
• Then it came full circle to me September when I lost my wife.
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• It would seem all of my life I've never been completely happy,
• Something great would happen, quickly followed by something crappy,
• But then I got into high school and everything started to change,
• I met this honey named Jodi, all my priorities rearranged.
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• So did you look at us at that point and curse that we can't be together,
• Even though we'd look in each others eyes and say forever,
• I know you didn't take her away, but you allowed her to die,
• Just like a bitch to take something away from someone without the why.
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• Something monumental happened, liquid and solidity rapping as one,
• Maybe that's why I'm sitting on the couch, clutching my gun,
• Solidity wants me to end it, come on let's go on home,
• The fastest way to get home would be that tap to the dome.
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• They say that home is where the heart is and right now that's with my son,
• So I'm not going anywhere until the raising of him is done,
• So we gonna keep battling on and on and on, and on,
• Till we meet up in the heavens and finally our time is gone.... But..
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• ok, I'm not trying to sit here and sound all anti-somatic,
• against the King of the Jews in which I happen to be mad at,
• I just can't get good with myself until I get good with God,
• an answer to my question would be nice, but it makes me feel odd.
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• to get attitude with the one that put all of us here on earth,
• that knew I'd be having these problems even before the day of my birth.
• and then while having these problems it made me question my worth,
• with all this anger up and down with hatred I am well versed.
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• but then you get to a point I'm sure in everyone's life,
• That you can get over shit, the loss of a child the loss of a wife,
• people do with every day, so Lord why can't I,
• from on high come down look me in my eyes and then tell me why.
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• that's all I'm looking for its simple Lord, just come tell me that,
• matter of fact I'll come to you, you just tell me where you at,
• come on Lord show me you still got it, take a walk with me on earth,
• and let's exchange some simple things that I like to call human words