DEFENDER'S RAP

• what is really the meaning of the word sadness?
• well, my life ain't shit, and my whole world is but blackness
• and I'm still waiting for a time when I finally come to gladness
• that I went through all the fucked up shit and madness
• but I need to get back down to earth and see the vastness
• of everything in, but I'm still eaten up by loneliness
• my life is fuck, I am not even going to hide from y'all
• I'm just waiting for my time to come and finally, fall
• I've been standing up for too long and it's time for me to crawl
• and go back into my lonely shell and turn into a ball
• I'm too sad tonight I think I'll melt like snowball
• what is really the meaning of the word "lonely"?
• if you see my dashboard right yes that's all me
• I got a lot of talent but I never earned a motherfucking trophy
• but all my envy I always keep it on low-key
• though I ain't got a friend, I still keep my heads up-boldly
• "be yourself" for me it's way too good, it's phoney
• two degrees in my house for me it's really cozy
• "people like you for you", now isn't this shit baloney?
• I'm writing this rap with tears rolling down my cheeks
• I don't want a lot of fans, but just to take a little peak
• in the life that I'm missing, and there's still lots of critiques
• I don't wanna make any scenes but I guess I'm just a freak
• I'm drowning way too fast I guess my boat has a leak
• I'll wait two more years and see if I'll reach the peak.
• today's a brand new day and I'm still tearing up
• everything slowing me down while I'm growing up
• I'm just waiting for my time to come, but now I shut the fuck up
• cause I don't know what words would to my future so I'm checking up
• I don't want any haters to come and try to bash my dreams
• cause the pain I feel it is already way too extreme
• and try to up all night and make no bloody scheme
• but the more I try the more it hurts me it seems
• I'm better off making money being the DJ I am
• at least, I was happier making my own jam
• instead of having to do what other people like-like damn
• I can't open the door that I really myself have slammed?
• I keep my rap as clean as I can, I don't want spams
• while I'm writing my hands shakes, I'm taking an exam
• so people think that the own the streets, like in monopoly
• but when I've seen what they've wrote that shit couldn't be more sloppy
• but for now, I don't want to do anything so I shut my beak
• I'm just waiting for my turn maybe I'll reach the peak