DEFENDER'S RAP

• oh when i look back i respect every days been
• oh when i look back i respect every days been
• oh when i look back i respect every days been
• oh when i look back i respect every days been
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• yo my whole life has been a struggle, up till now i suffered
• 3 of us were living in one room shit was always up something
• one thing or another life was unfair one day i thought fuck it
• picked up my mums pen stole a pad from schools cupboard
• and from then i was something with nothing to had something to prove
• and i started to erupt views, show people was the thing reluctant to do
• i had so much in my shoes and i knew they would judge me to soon
• a kid from London in school, acting up was judged as a fool
• i guess it was just something to do
• coz i'm a cunt i give no fucks about nothing at all
• stick my middle finger up to you all
• all i want is me my pad pen n my thoughts
• staring blank at the wall, think of a rap then record it
• never would wrap up untill early morning
• lie in bed relax untill i do it all again
• the quiet man has the loudest thoughts
• thats the only way to describe my doubts n flaws
• without them all i wouldn't be telling this story
• id probably be in bed, or dead from fucking up poorly
• more n more i think about from when i was reported
• locked up for weeks n weeks that was some bullshit
• but now i'm not at all stressed, i got my pen
• and i got my mental, and i ain't mental
• i'm just fucked up from my past to my present
• coz i let it effect me, parents never were parents
• only presence was the present of wrecking
• everything including each other, n one left me
• ones dead to me, but i'm glad the others there for me
• i'm adopted by hip-hop and it doesn't let me sleep
• mentally brings out the best in me
• that feeling when i write is like im immensely free
• i'm meant to be attached to the pen n sheet
• fuck everyone else i wont be what you want me to be
• talk shit behind my back, ill say that same shit to your face g
• wanna fight or clash i ain't scared to hit your face g
• at the end of the day, its shit like this that made me
• i remember laying beat, praying please i would have a day of peace
• now every days a piece of the puzzle i'm making
• when i'm puzzled i day dream
• and shut off every day things
• i just woke up fuck it enough of being lazy
• enough derailing my own brain
• enough i just wrote flame
• get me a match a can of gas n propane
• i'm pro-pain, coz it made me what i am today
• and what i am today is not amazing
• but you cant say i ain't inspirational
• because i get my inspiration from events of ages
• when i look back i respect every days been
• i look back i respect every days been
• i look back i respect every days been
• i seen wrong i seen right thats made me
• i seen good i seen bad thats made me
• i been down i been up n thats made me
• i been fucked now i'm something thats made me
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• oh when i look back i respect every days been
• oh when i look back i respect every days been