DEFENDER'S RAP

• She told me that I'm the reason she didn't commit suicide,
• She told me that for two years, death was sweet in her eyes,
• She cries herself to sleep, with tears so painful they bleed,
• If it hadn't been for me, her life would've been in jeopardy,
• At night she asks me to sing her one of my melodies,
• Cause in her mind, my one voice sounds like a full symphony,
• Her life full of mysteries, and sinister visions peek,
• Her thoughts are constantly full of devilish menacing,
• She wishes she could be the referee of her story,
• Instead of darkened fiends writing her fucking history,
• Craves a loving family, a dad happily married,
• Instead of her dreams being buried and no one there helping,
• Every night spent lonely, no memories worth holding,
• A mother full of scolding in an apartment building,
• Razor blades in hand hoping her life will change slowly,
• She told me I'm the reason she didn't commit suicide,
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• If I hadn't met her that one day before,
• Her mind would be lost, her body a corpse,
• She says I'm the only reason worth living for,
• But darling no, if one day I leave, you can't let your life go,
• A love song, written by me to remember me,
• A love song, to stop you from surrendering,
• A love song, Promise me if one day I leave,
• You won't let your life go,
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• I said, "I have dreams of becoming a rapper,"
• She said, "Then those are the dreams that you're going after,"
• But what if I succeed and have tours to factor?
• And I'm forced to leave her in disaster,
• Is fame worth not being able to see my wife and my children?
• Whichever path I pick is bound to be the wrong decision,
• Yeah I'll have money, but what good is that really,
• If I'mma be working twenty-four-seven as a musician?
• I said, "These are the things I would give up for you,
• My dreams and everything that I ever knew,