This is a song about "Wanting him but not really needing him"

I begged for his survival cause me needing him is vital.

Cause they say a mind that's idle is a devil's toy aisle

In him i'm not afraid!

Those are not my dreams, i'll be straight

I swear i could kill him but i know im better than him

Now they fallin off like nutso on above the rim

Lies, tangled with fiction

But i put my trust in him

The world should turn as soon as my records spin

I walk in and the begin to go "oh no not him"

I swear i could kill him but i know im better than him

She gon have a baby then flee from her education

I know that love it could begin

But im already better than him

Yeah, ready for whatever

But his mistake killed him more than her