This is a song about "January feeling isolated birthdays lonliness"

And when they try to get parental and start talkin' loud

(what up dad?) do you remember the birthdays you missed out?

Feeling tired, feeling colder

Just blink twice and i’m there where you are

Better or worse, the center of attention

Isolated and drugged far away and made my way in

Get off a key like i can’t sing

Feeling, of appealing

Be my little pill and just creep into my blood stream

Didn't even call me when january 2 was my thirteen

And i don't care if she gone, in a long skirt

Getting flooded by anxiety, feeling conquered,