This is a song about "I should have followed my heart"

I should have been named joyce, so we can rejoice in my choice,

Everything be rem, my eyes look like them chinese boys

I thought my heart was stopping

Catch you up on places i've been

If i can't have your heart then mine i will pawn.

And then i'll lay you down and record soft porn

Heartbroken obviously, there's not tomorrow

My heart kept saying that it’s her that i should follow

So gon' and be my dealer baby

I should not have to pay the fee

Not one bit should i have been relieved,

For me looks good she said oh you so sweet

And i can't breath when i'm high cause the airs too thin

All these illusions have me lost on what i should be doin'

And i don't know no triple h, but this is all about the game

I miss you saying i love you swiftly followed by my name,