This is a song about "I am not gonna join"

I do not mind if i am not cool

I'm going hard for the days i was piss poor

Cause i am gonna rise/

Started off on thin ice

Cause i am gonna rise/

Hey! what's your name? oh, that's nice

If ya’ll about to hate then alleviate the diss

Now sing with me: i am gonna cut my wrists

Can't wait 'til a cop ain't actin' right

Am not gonna leave my life without a fight

Cause i am gonna rise/

Rollin' down the four o five

I am gonna learn a smell that is called suicide death

The best is that which i accept and nothing less

Asking myself am i gonna be winning

I cannot believe you think you young and tripping