This is a song about "Fapping myself"

All my life i've been struggling with myself,

I think i've got some enemies disguised as friends

But even when you leave, somehow it still try to follow

I slapped myself across the face and told myself "hell no,

Hit it or four play

Tell myself everyday

Wish i could shed all these tears

I'd fucking murder myself!

They asking me to be myself

Bitch, don't mess this up for yourself

I need to fucking find myself,

We can never be friends

I'm on deck i'm up next

Never stood up for myself