This is a song about "Depressing past"

I'm a man with a sick past

And i ain't trying to land

Of opposing, resenting it, held it in doleful depressing pit

When they hate, i never give a whole fuck, or half shit

I gotta make it even if heaven or hell

On all the most depressing shit, oh well

Whether you rhyme slow or the beat fast

Just for me being weird in the past/

Seeing ghosts from the past

Plagiarized swag, may arrive last

Tryna defeat the past

Spend the night with me, we'll talk and

You never gonna forgive me, but your so damn pretty

I'm far from ecstasy, this song's depressing me

I live in god's waiting room, depressing as hell

Imitated out-of-toners wasn't going well