This is a song about "Im gona kill myself"

I keep my friends close, enemies closer, fuck both, i dont trust no one

I'd rather kill myself before seeing what monster what i've become

I know i can't kill myself so i run and punch the shelf

Cause it'll never be the same hereso i wipe away the tears

Too impressed with myself for godsake im clapping

‘cause he could die any day and you still the same thing

And i don't do colorful jeans or shiny kicks

Now at least, im feedin myself with your organs

Only thing omitted is a baby or a wedding ring

Too impressed with myself for godsake im clapping

Like i'm mac miller, killing these rappers before i kill myself.

Fall in love with defeat, throw my endeavors on the shelf

And you ride with this

And your gona want a kiss