CONFLICTED

Angels and demons on my shoulders, tryna get to me

Thinking 'bout the past fills me up with darker memories

Hate to rewind, a lot I buried, now they rest in peace

Running to the right 'cause depression's to the left of me

Judge me at my worst, and you'll never see the best of me

Dealing with my trauma, tryna drown out its bad energy

My smile is my biggest disguise

I'm alive, but feeling dead inside

 

Feeling down, really down

Lord, hope I ain't finna drown

Life's tryna take me out

But I ain't never backing out

Gotta be a man, face-to-face with all my problems

Too proud to ask for help, that's why we barely solve them

Take a hit, eat it up

Don't complain, or you're a bitch

This one life, live it up

But I can't enjoy an inch

 

I was taught to only get the dough back when I was so broke

Now I got no friends so I'll prolly spend it all alone

Now the ones who used to love me say they hate me and I hate it

I just hope I'm happy when I make a mil and say I made it

 

Angels and demons on my shoulders, tryna get to me

Thinking 'bout the past fills me up with darker memories

Hate to rewind, a lot I buried, now they rest in peace

Running to the right 'cause depression's to the left of me

Judge me at my worst, and you'll never see the best of me

Dealing with my trauma, tryna drown out its bad energy

My smile is my biggest disguise

I'm alive, but feeling dead inside

 

Don't know who to trust

Don't know who to love, what I'mma do?

Spend it on a thot

But I know she's fucking for the blues

Get back in the booth

Make some chunes 'til my name's on the news

Get back into school

Make all A's but never see the use

Doing everything, tryna find a way to feel fulfilled

But I hate it all, I know they're mad but I'mma keep it real

I've been too isolated, a thousand miles away from the world

But I know it doesn't get me any closer to the Lord

 

I was taught to only get the dough back when I was so broke

Now I got no friends so I'll prolly spend it all alone

Now the ones who used to love me say they hate me and I hate it

I just hope I'm happy when I make a mil and say I made it

 

Angels and demons on my shoulders, tryna get to me

Thinking 'bout the past fills me up with darker memories

Hate to rewind, a lot I buried, now they rest in peace

Running to the right 'cause depression's to the left of me

Judge me at my worst, and you'll never see the best of me

Dealing with my trauma, tryna drown out its bad energy

My smile is my biggest disguise

I'm alive, but feeling dead inside