Suffocating

I'm suffocating deep down

I can barely breathe

I'm getting weaker by the day

Even my screams sound like bleats

I'm suffering but still forcing a smile

Indecisive to accept defeat

My heart beat is making a faint bleep

I feel I'm fading slowly

 

Every day, my mind drifts from place to place

Thoughts to thoughts

From beyond the pale to hasty

Distorted and discordant

From depressing to suicidal

I feel I might soon die

This isolation is killing

It feels like I'm falling

Every minute that goes by

It feels like I'm dying

Every moment that goes by

I feel like I'm fading

 

I'm suffocating deep down

I can barely breathe

I'm getting weaker by the day

Even my screams sound like bleats

I'm suffering but still forcing a smile

Indecisive to accept defeat

My heart beat is making a faint bleep

I feel I'm fading slowly

 

But I haven't done much

I've barely lived my life

I haven't reached my peak

Barely made an impact

Everything seems so bleak

This isn't what I desire

These days aren't aglow

And I'm all alone

And I won't talk to anyone

Including those that can help

I won't open up to anyone

I'm so hell-bent

 

I'm suffocating deep down

I can barely breathe

I'm getting weaker by the day

Even my screams sound like bleats

I'm suffering but still forcing a smile

Indecisive to accept defeat

My heart beat is making a faint bleep

I feel I'm fading slowly

 

Why is giving up this bold

Why do I feel this cold

Is this how it ends

Is this how it goes

Why does everything look bleary

Why aren't the usual jokes funny

Is this how I end

Is this how I go

 

I'm suffocating deep down

I can barely breathe

I'm getting weaker by the day

Even my screams sound like bleats

I'm suffering but still forcing a smile

Indecisive to accept defeat

My heart beat is making a faint bleep

I feel I'm fading slowly

 

I'm suffocating deep down

I can barely breathe

I'm getting weaker by the day

Even my screams sound like bleats