This place(my mind)

Why am I in this place for the fun of it.

I guess being yourself is a punishment.

What’s a smile if your not really happy.

Wake up in a place feeling scared, feeling crappy.

Help me from this faster or you can say goodbye.

This place is a disaster and you just wonder why.

Nobody understands how I feel deep inside.

But i try to stay strong with my head held high.

I got so many questions.

Yeah why do I do so good but you don’t respect it.

And how does everybody gotta all figured out,

As I stand and fight this shits so depressing.

Fuck, I’m so emotional.

I keep fucking trying from a broken soul,

With a broken heart, re opened mind.

I’m tryna to find the freedom on this path of time.

But I don’t know, I don’t know.

It’s been a long time since I felt like myself.

I might as well grab the nine and turn the safety off.

And let my mind travel right through the shell.

Shit I need help, shit I need help.

I don’t really know who the fuck I can turn to.

I try to take my time and listen to advice.

See I was taught patience is a virtue.

But I’m sick and tired of being in this place.

Fuck tomorrow, I learned to cope in ways.

Fuck my mindset, fuck this thinking.

Fuck the drama, to fuck the stressing.

Fuck the judgements, fuck assumptions.

Fuck the people who made me feel like nothing.

Fuck this all cause in done hurting.

Gonna get away when I get out this coffin.

 

 

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Everyday is just waiting for me.

So many regrets it’s so hard to believe.

Like where would I be if I didn’t move out.

And I kept taking classes and mama was proud.

And what would have changed if my father was here.

And mom was with him and their love was sincere.

No fucking divorce no need for the courts.

Together we all fell when they brought the storms.

We fought through it all.

Yeah this is a hard time but we won’t quit.

But it’s sad to think I won’t leave this place.

Cause I broke apart someone get the mace.

Yo fuck, yo fuck.

Do I give up or do I stand in my feet.

Do I give in to an easier life.

Loving every single day to just work or to please.

Shit what should I do, what do I do.

Do I hold on to this thing called life.

Do I stay strong while there’s mace in my eyes.

Can I move on cause I’m hurting inside.

Where can I go, where do I go.

Above the world and hope for some peace,

Fed up with love, fed up with sorrow and pain,

That’s been burning within me so deep.

Fuck.

 

 

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