What happened to innocent lives

So many questions in my reflection. Like what happened to innocent lives n how did i survive? I can't 4get how everythin' so fast. People say i should 4gt cuz itc all in the past. Somethin' i cannot listen 2cuz i know you were the best. Gimme strength when i'm to fight the pain in my chest. Hope u lookn' over me when i'm depressed. Back in the days i remember How you held my hand n showed me to your friends. Life was amazing bt now itc crayz.i'm around pretenders bunch of haters who can kill you 4the papers. They don't understand my pain, that's Y they say i'm in the wrong. So much pressure i had no choice bt 2make a song. I feel like nobody really there 4me , nobody really cares 4me

So much pain almost took my life , thought about my sisters so i had to do what's right. On a grind everytime n i'm ready to fight , i can act gimic when nikkaz cross the line. Can't just sit at the crib n c my sisters cry , granny asked me kiddo y are you taking a knife? In my deepsleep nightmares every night. My parents left me when i was only a kid so i kneel down on my knees 2pray every morning sunshine then i pull up the curtain. I wish i was seven , hope we meet up in heaven. Can't pay 4my fees i don't know where 2go. Am i ever gonna stay at the block n sleep on the flow. So much pain it really crushed my soul. This feels like music but i'm asking 4help. Hope u praying 4me when i'm so mad , when life is bad n when friends are fake.