RIP Grandma 4/17/19

About 2 days ago my grandma passed away, people keep asking me if I'm

okay,

God I really just wanted her to stay, anyway, I prayed, but it was to late, and

I was getting really afraid, then me being this way put me in a shade, I really

don't want no one to get some fade, I really hope that she went up to the

gates of heaven and all of her mistakes was released and she was pleased

and that pleasant feeling didn't decrease, didn't cease, she had faith In me

and wanted to see me get degrees like it was gonna be a breeze, like my

smartness and knowledge would just increase but right now I'm on my knees

not in peace thinking about the memories and the worries but then I freeze

and clench my teeth as if I would get revenge, clenching my teeth like it would

swipe my worries underneath, but the sad thing is, she didn't even receive

her gift, her necklace, it would of been precious to her, now I'm restless,

helpless, why is life such a menace, but I guess life is precious, so we

got to live on.