FORGIVE ME

VERSE 1

 

Yea, I always wonder how God sees me

Am I good in his eyes? Does he know who I'll be?

Or is this it? Have I really grown out of peace?

Is this all for me? I don't know let's see

Let's break it down, I run away when things get difficult, I stay when deep down I know I really shouldn't of, but if that's on me, guess you could say I'm really in for it, if you think that's bad compared to everything else it's insignificant

I sabotage things then blame the influence, under the influence is just an excuse for different, voices in your head screaming to just "get over yourself" I bite the hands that give me hope, cause I'm too proud to accept help

I hate the blood that runs through my veins, the hands that help me, and keep me from falling on my face

How does that make you feel? Does it hurt when I say I hate what you create, I promise it's not you I swear it's those damn voices

There I go, making another excuse, sorry for using the hands you created to create the noose

I use on a daily basis after I throw out the tools, you gave me to learn how to cut me out from my roots

 

CHORUS

 

Must’ve lost the code to peace

Could've sworn I just had it

That mean I deserve to bleed

Or do I need to earn it

Earn the right to the keys

It’s okay I’ll be your servant

Could you forgive me please?

For not loving

 

Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh

 

VERSE 2

 

Where do you draw the line between heaven and Hell?

At what point do people give up their souls to sell?

Will it help if I say I'm trying to stay alive and well?

Will you be proud of me for trying to come out of my shell?

Oh well if that won't do it I can try something else

I can pray every night, hope you'll take pity on me I swear

I'll do better for you, if you let me, please just hear me out, I promise I won't use the tools you gave me to build another carousel

I won't go round en’ round, making more mistakes for you to forgive, I won't look up at the sky and make another dying wish, I promise I'll switch, I won't believe anymore tricks, I'll follow every word you say, I swear I can live without wings

Just hang in tight, don't worry I'll learn to appreciate life

I'll take the lows you give and learn from it, instead of inching towards the knife

But if I screw up just know that it's not another lie

If I try and fail or fall please say you'll still forgive me right?

 

CHORUS

 

Must’ve lost the code to peace

Could've sworn I just had it

That mean I deserve to bleed

Or do I need to earn it

Earn the right to the keys

It’s okay I’ll be your servant

Could you forgive me please?

For not loving

 

Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh

 

VERSE 3

 

Still got so many questions for you

Do you forgive people cause you feel like you have to?

Give us a reason to keep going when the hate is due?

Don't know if I could make amends to people who put me through

Years and years of hurt, years of believing I deserve, every horrible word they drilled into my skull, while they ripped out my worth

Piece by piece, nerve by nerve, watch everything fall through my fingers

Verse by verse, word by word, while I depend on hopeful prayers

Guess that's why people admire you, look up to you, cause most people spend their lives, reliving grudges, including me too

Hour by hour, monsters with power, but everyone holds a weapon

Fire and fire, higher and higher, but not everyone learns the lesson

How do you choose the people who enter the sacred grounds of heaven?

Is there a line? Or a level to separate good from evil?

Is there a scale to measure who lies and who's truthful?

Is there a moment where people decided to go lethal

Do you blame me for things I didn’t have a choice of?

Like stayed in place when I knew I should’ve run

It’s a funny thing, spend time running cause that’s what I should’ve done

Don’t know when to choose between staying put or choosing love

 

CHORUS

 

Must’ve lost the code to peace

Could've sworn I just had it

That mean I deserve to bleed

Or do I need to earn it

Earn the right to the keys

It’s okay I’ll be your servant

Could you forgive me please?

For not loving

 

Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh, Me, Ohh