assistance

congratulations bitch, isn’t this what you wanted?

you self sabotage, whilst ive been trying my hardest

living like i’ve got a target, attached to my back

should have bigger problems than that

but this dumbass problem just keeps getting larger

and i can’t stop it

it keeps on growing

you get stick to your stomach, but all the words keep on flowing

and you wanna stop, but you keep on hoping

that someonell come and lift you up from the dump you’ve chosen

and i’ve chose myself, prioritised my health

for the last couple of months

you keep switching your fucking mind one minute you’re trying to fuck

then you’re lying bout us

you’re lying bout me

i’m fighting under water, juggling shit but still trying to breathe

cause all these struggles piling on me

nobody else is fighting for me

and my friends say they do, but tell the truth

i feel like i can read their minds

you couldn’t achieve peace of mind so you took a piece of mine

didn’t want me to free my time

so now these tears i cry

never knew id beg someone, please just leave me behind

cause it’s been a while, and im still on your mind

shit while you’ve been grieving i’ve been on my grind

but you ruined it you stupid bitch how could you do this to me

i’d rather shoot myself in the head than deal another day living with this scrutiny

you feel alone, cause there’s nobody who believes

what you speak, and you see, truthfully what these dudes claim to be

they ain’t your friends, they’ll stab your backs

then you gotta vent your feelings on another track

 

 

ps:

help, my ex and i haven’t spoken for ~4 months, and out of the blue she messages my friend,

not hers, about how i did shit to her. my friends say they believe me but it doesn’t feel like that

i know this is goofy asf but shit, advice would be appreciated (i want her to move on from our

relationship and stop thinking about me)