Mind Melt

Look, I don’t know where to start, my head's a riot,

Defiant, thoughts bang violent, just be quiet, I can’t deny it.

Everything’s too loud, too fast, can’t pace or brace it,

Life’s squeezing and breaking me, I can’t face it.

Pain temporary, fear’s secondary, stress sticks like glue,

Tell myself it’s a phase, but days replay déjà vu.

I’m cracked, abstract, just a product of stress,

Sleep skips me nightly, confesses breath in a mess.

My thoughts overlap, like cars colliding in a wreck,

Still tryna keep up the rhyme and sweep through the mental speck.

Mom said, “grow up,” I said, “I tried, backfired fast,”

Now she stares like my pain’s expired, like shadows I cast.

My voice shakes, but my bars stay ironclad,

‘Cause it’s the only thing I’ve got when I lose what I had.

Can’t stand mirrors — I don’t trust what I see,

Every crack in the glass looks too fucking much like me.

 

Yeah, I talk to nothin’, but maybe you’re near my mind,

Fear rewinds, clear signs smear the design.

Life loops lunacy, truth seeps through the air,

I pace, spit, split, glitch, no body, nobody there.

Shards spark, dark marks carve scars in the light,

Heart hardens, bark sharp, bite back through the night.

Every rhyme’s a lifeline, every line a breath,

Mind Melt, I'm still here, still caught in this mess.

 

I’m so sick of it, stiff in it, pain stitched in the core,

Mom keeps yellin’ through the door, I’m cemented to the floor.

She said I’m worthless ‘cause I stopped tryna word this,

But the burden’s on my back, not muscle, that’s where the hurt is.

Dreamin’ of change, still chained to the frame,

Same pain, flame drained, can’t aim through the shame.

Fear and regret rent space in my head,

One whispers “move,” the other hisses “you’re better off dead.”

You hear these words, every thought I spit,

Tryna keep up with me, step closer. I’ll make you quit.

They say I’m gifted, but I’m driftin’, barely afloat,

Bleedin’ bars like IV scars just to stay woke.

Now I know I ain’t much when you look me in my face,

Guess it’s fate, people vanish when they stare at the fake.

Everybody came close, then they ghost, they pretend,

I learned silence cuts deeper than the noise of my “friends.”

 

Yeah, I talk to nothin’, but maybe you’re near my mind,

Fear rewinds, clear signs smear the design.

Life loops lunacy, truth seeps through the air,

I pace, spit, split, glitch, no body, nobody there.

Shards spark, dark marks carve scars in the light,

Heart hardens, bark sharp, bite back through the night.

Every rhyme’s a lifeline, every line a breath,

Mind Melt, I'm still here, still caught in this mess.

 

Static in my skeleton, messages meddlin’, echo adrenaline,

Head spinnin’, sentences bendin’, my weapon’s the pen again.

Rage settle in, meddlin’ meds, I’m my own specimen,

Brain patterns scatter, I shatter when pressure’s settin’ in.

Crack codes, overload modes, I’m in the backroads,

Facts fold, heart’s cold, I’m still carryin’ black loads.

Tracks go ballistic, twisted, cryptic vocals,

Local ghost turn global, I’m postal, offically antisocial.

If you catch my meltdown on repeat, I hope you listen close,

Not for pity, just proof that the chaos I own is dose.

I spit this to the void; maybe you’re the ghost who stays,

Maybe you’re the one who hears me and don’t look away.

Who helps a kid the universe breaks in two?

Who holds weight when the whole world shakes loose screws?

Every secret I hide gets revived when I write,

Mind Melt’s the file name stamped in my heart’s dark archives.

 

Yeah, I talk to nothin’, but maybe you’re near my mind,

Fear rewinds, clear signs smear the design.

Life loops lunacy, truth seeps through the air,

I pace, spit, split, glitch, no body, nobody there.

Shards spark, dark marks carve scars in the light,

Heart hardens, bark sharp, bite back through the night.

Every rhyme’s a lifeline, every line a breath,

Mind Melt, I'm still here, still caught in this mess.