NO GUIDANCE//WHITEKID CVSUAL
• Written by WhitekidCvsual
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WhitekidCvsual's Notes
An older piece I wrote (only like a couple months old) but finally recorded. My bad for how jank this track is in recorded form, back when I wrote it I had no beat in mind- kinda the same for most of my shit. I never write a piece with the thought that imma record it as I got hundreds of pieces that'll never see a recorded variant.
This is who I am- I'm shattered,
I'm so broken,
Wanna be happy but can't afford that token,
shuttin' my thoughts out cuz I'm too busy chokin',
on these things I keep inside of my brain I'm no longer holdin',
myself up high,
I'm so damn lonely at night,
lookin' at the stars in the sky,
late night walks but I'm no longer feelin' the vibe,
can't do a single thing without wantin' to cry,
thinkin' on my life like shit I wanna die
I'm trapped in this state of constant loneliness,
I got so many negative thoughts about myself and my unholiness,
Lately been back in the state of wanting to die but I'm the unluckiest,
People die every day why the hell can't I be up next?
You've heard my other shit so in this I don't need to offer context,
I don't got a single new thing to have reindexed,
I just wanna sleep, I just wanna be happy,
I just wanna be me, don't want my voice all scratchy,
People wonderin' why I smoke so heavily,
This shit ain't heavenly,
I just choose cuz it lowers my lifespan passively,
Overtime it's effects will be done drastically,
I'll drop dead in the moonlight waitin' to be a project in anatomy,
I'll die so unhappily,
You're lucky I don't have a gun license,
I would've blown my head to pieces no guidance,
Everybody gon' be hearin' sirens,
People say I got no reason to wanna die and it's for the most part true,
I'm just so sick of myself but my souls stuck here like glue,
Through and through,
Wanna escape myself and live with a proper mindset like you and you,
I think of myself and I jus' wanna spew and spew,
Let my blood soak my carpet,
Let my body rot in this apartment,
Let me give them sum' to discuss in the department,
I know I need some help and I'd be willing to accept it,
But all I want currently is to have my soul collected, but it's intercepted,
by you selfish fucks,
tryna make me feel good enough,
So I don't drop dead no blood on the cuff,
I'm callin' your bluff,
you only think about how it'll make others feel if I die,
Well what about me and how I feel continuin' my life?
And as for that, it's not that bad,
My life's okay and occasionally troublesome,
But pretty normal for me as I'm cumbersome,
I just can't stand myself,
Life's not the issue it's the brain I've been dealt,
The regrets that I've held,
All the shit I haven't yelled,
I'm slowly taking how I feel and speaking it out true,
But let me guess, this is too negative for you?
Well I'm here to be honest even if it means speakin' blue,
Here's the end of the song, I wish it were the end of me too.
